So what does this have to do with MS? so much. Today was an off day. But I worked through it. I took my meds, I did my yoga bits, I drank my ShenTrition, ate my apple...meditated and breathed my way into a rhythm with the animals. Thus bringing a rhythm to me. Sometimes I think MS is a sign of getting out of whack - and we just need to be whacked back into place. Gently whacked that is.
I start to tense during the morning. Can I ride them all in time? Time for what? to get the car back. To end at noon because that is the habit I have started. To not wear myself out. Today was fine. Six is the max. for now.
The MS has been testing me lateley. I've been needing more nutrients. More water. More rest. More health. And I've been giving in. Mostly all good. Yesterday was wine tasting in Los Olivos. Always a good time. Breakfast at the Pharmacy in Montecito, a drive up the pass, shopping at Jedlickas, a #28 from Paninos, Rusack picnic area, Beckman babes...it all works. But today, back to the grindstone. Marketing work. Nonprofit work. Horse work. A lot of work. Just not much money. Oh well. Life is good and I'm enjoying the heck out of it.
Off to bathe and meditate a bit before my evening responsibilities. Charni is speaking about her experience in China and I'm going to the BBQ sort of. I have no meat to bring or anything but will figure it out. I just want to hear her speak. Very nice and intelligent, talented woman. So, it's the Tournament of Roses cocktail party (maybe) and then the club. First of all, it's time for some me-time. Some taking care of me. Gentle care for the MS girl...
One thing you do not want to do with MS is stay up really late, drinking lots of red wine and eating mass quantities of fondue. Now granted, many movies were watched, friends were close, laughter loud...but no, that's not something to do with MS. At least if you do it, then make sure you have nothing much planned the next day that involves using heavy equipment. I found brainstorming to work...
School is more challenging than expected. The many changes in my physical and mental life. Last week I was worried about my vision failing me on the highway. That I would misjudge. I was fine. But I am conscience of every piece of energy going in and out of this body. The water I'm drinking now. The work I'm getting done. The stress releasing.
Tomorrow is a Monday and that is a big day. School at the end. Meetings in between. goal: Not to over due before school. Tomorrow is week four. There will only be ten left, I'm enjoying the heck out of it, don't get me wrong. But I will be glad to have one less thing on my plate.
Life management. that's what MS is about. Among other things. But if you don't make changes and expect your medications to make everything OK than you're in for a different disease. MS defines itself through your subconscience.